do you have the guts to love me

Saturday, April 22, 2006
9:04 PM

hello.. today we had our cca CIP- music for the community. actually, the community refers to an ah ma with her family only, that is if you exclude YCK symphonic band and SWO. haha. but anw i think we filled up all the seats.

i left my house kind of late but reached school at 11am to realise that there was no francesca and zhi yin. sucks man and luckily tedrid brought down francesca's bass and xiao you rolled zhi yin's bass. i brought along the canon digital SLR along since mrs wong allowed. yupp, and i think the zoom lens rocked.

as usual had trouble bringing my bass up the bus blahblah to sembawang cc.. sian journey and i was wondering why the driver didnt use TPE. he went by CTE instead followed up by SLE. i dont really like the orange and blue hall but since i didnt have a chance to paint it, i shall jolly well shut up.

saw mog.. haha. i cant remember but i think it was before we were going to play, i slowed down or something and i turned behind, wanting to talk to xiao you when i almost fell onto mog, nearly stepping on his shoes. and i was like, shit. mumbled an apology and he said sth that was too soft.

i played a hell lot of wrong notes and pizzed wrongly while trying to catch jien's attention. sighs. i cant continue like that for one more year. i have absolutely no idea of how life will be in band next year. dont ask me, but it is my core cca. tell me anything but i am dead.

then when YCK and SWO were playing, i got quite bored and tried to scratch of the letters of the chair. it was quite funny lar.. but not very nice got got some weird words. somehow sat next to xiao you and i think i made a lot of noise cos mrs wong was giving me you-must-be-quiet face cos she was two empty chairs away..

tried to catch jien's attention and she was smiling at me when i was grinning at her.. so it was like everytime she want playing i would give this spastic grin. then when they were presenting the exchange gifts or sth, i started giving broad spastic grins to jien but if i didnt see wrongly mog smiled back. all because they lie in the same plane. how confusing eh?

went to the toilet after the 'concert' and was shortly joined by mrs wong who claimed to be in an explosive stage. Mount st helens was my first thought. then boarded the bus back to dhs. the stupid uncle was bullying francesca lorh. he grabbed my bass up the bus as though it was a pig about to be sent to the abattoir lor. then francesca said she didnt need his help but he was like.. still took her bass up and was ranting about how fast and efficient he was. and before we left dhs, jien wasnt too happy about me letting the uncle bringing up my bass. afterall, its not my fault, i dont want to get scolded for nothing. but haiz, bus drivers are simply bus drivers i guess..

i am going to fall sick soon. all because of the stupid chicken rice chilli i ate with xiao you yesterday. but i still feel like eating chicken rice now. YES, at 2115hr. dont roll your eyes.

<3 me if you dare-`